Time out
Wednesday, Apr. 06, 2005 - 9:37 pm
Here I am again. I keep forgetting to blog, I'm so sorry :$
Let's see, what has happened lately. We're having Easter holidays now, and the first four days (if you don't count the weekend) we went to Paris. We = the fifth grade of my school. I guess I can say it was fun, tiring, interesting and saddening. Just like everything else.
I'm taking driving lessons. I had my third today. I still haven't killed any old ladies yet, or let the car stop in the middle of a crossroad, but I'm not really good at it either. When I say I haven't let the car stop in the middle of a crossroad yet, that means it's yet to come (for sure) and it also means I let it stop everywhere else, where it shouldn't stop. And the other way around: I don't stop where I should. It's just really difficult, but well I guess I'll learn how to do it in a year. That's how much time I have left til the exam, should be enough.
I had exams (a few, only six) before the Easter holidays, and got a report card of those exams. It wasn't bad (not at all actually) but I still have only 67% (just like in first term), and my parents want me to have 70%. I used not to care about that, but now they made it a condition for my going to America. If I don't have 70% at the end of this and next year, they won't even think about it. This means I have to have A LOT of good marks this third term, so that I have 70% at the end of the year. I don't care about next year because you have to subscribe in October (max) but I do care about this year, you have no idea how hard I'm going to have to study to get that 70%. I hate studying, it's one of the things I hate most, but well if that's what they want then they can get it, I'm going to America and nothing, nobody will stop me!
They also want me to finish my piano lessons. They're dead boring but I can live with it, I think. And I have to get my drivers license, which won't be that hard. I mean I probably won't pass the first time, but then I'm sure I'll pas the second time or the third. My sister did it in three times too and my dad was okay with it, so no problem there. It's just the studying. But ah, let's not think about studying right now, the holidays are almost over but not yet!
I'm going out Saturday. I don't go out very often and I didn't want to go at first, but a lot of people I know are gonna be there and the party isn't far away from where I live so my dad won't have to stay up for me. He said I could go because it's in the holidays, and that I won't be allowed to go to a party in the third term but I understand that, and I'll be too busy studying so yeah. I don't even like going to parties a lot, only if they're really good and the right people are there. I hope this one will be fun. Hehe you know I'm already freaking out about what I'm going to wear and I have three days left to think about it. That's typical me.
I'm tired, and I know why. I used to read a lot during the holidays, like four or five books a day, but then (like two years ago or something) I "discovered" the computer and got rather addicted to it. Because of that I stopped reading, but I can't miss it really so I started reading after I went to bed every evening, which got me reading every night until two or three in the morning. It's not healthy and I know it, but I can't help it. I'm never able to put a book down, unless it's really boring or I'm really tired. I know I'll be reading tonight too, but the book I'm reading now is almost finished so maybe I'll go to sleep at midnight. In a way I find myself stupid, but well in the mornings I can sleep til midday and that's when I catch up on all the sleep I've missed. I'll survive, lol.
Not much more to say. Well there is, but not the kind of things you put in a blog. More the kind of things you tell your best friend, but I happen not to have one of those so yeah, I'll just keep them to myself then. Sigh.
I hate everything about you
Friday, Mar. 04, 2005 - 9:10 pm
It's done, it's over, it's finished! I'm talking about the website I made for Kunstbende, it's (almost) finished and they'll be judging it in a few days. March 21st I'll know if I got through or not. I hope I am, but that's not for sure. There are a few other sites or games or whatever that are very good, I'm especially quite fond of a site called Fangorn. It's a small site with a number of poems on it, which the maker of the site wrote himself. He's done a very good job, I like the site and the poems very much.
So much happened since my last entry, almost too much to talk about. Some things I don't want to talk about too. There was CREA, there was eh... CREA,... lol I can't really think of anything else but that's because CREA was great, it was so much fun and my best CREA up to now. I've got only one to go, this was my fifth. I so want to do presentation next year, and I want to dance too. I never got to dance before, I always played the piano, which got pretty boring. But I'll keep doing it, as long as I can do other things as well. It's only two weeks ago but I miss it, I wanna go back.
It's been snowing sometimes here, since a few weeks, and today there was a lot of snow, and I mean a lot. I do like snow fights, but not with people who are only interested in irritating you. They irritate me. I didn't do much snow fighting, not only because of that but also because I feel really miserable. But I'm not going to talk about that, it makes me even more sad than I already am. I can't stop to think about it however, but I can try.
I don't think I've got anything interesting to say apart from the things I already said. I just don't care that much anymore, about anything. My friends are getting a little worried, they keep asking me what's wrong, but I can't really tell anyone except for Steffi. She's being a really good friend, she understands me.
Anyway, I think I'm starting to sound a little depressing/depressed so I'll just shut up.
Kiss
Release your inhibitions!
Sunday, Feb. 06, 2005 - 6:14 pm
Phew! At last, finally, I'm done! I started a few days ago, archiving all the entries that were up so far. I tried to put one entry per page, to prevent pages from becoming too long, but it didn't work and I started messing everything up terribly. So I just copy-pasted every single entry somewhere else, and then deleted them. Then I put the copies on a few other pages (see Older) and adapted all of them to the new layout. This took me almost two entire days. Yesterday I also started making a new layout, which I finished today. It features a cool picture of me (second from the left) and some of my friends of the KSJ. I like the way it turned out, simple but pretty, just like the layout on About Life. It has the same stylesheet (except for the colors of course). There's also nothing complicated about the navigation or pages, which makes the site easier to navigate through for people who don't surf the internet that often. That's very important to me, not only because I can remember how confusing everything was at first, but because when my friends have a look at my site or blog, they usually said that it was complicated. Therefor I try to keep my site and blog as simple as I can, without them loosing their beauty.
But, I was talking about the blog update right. So after the layout and the Older pages were made, I made a few new pages and buttons and uploaded the whole bunch to my Freewebs account again. The blog had been hosted there before, and I had kept the account to redirect people to the new url and also in case something like this would happen. Once everything was sorted out and uploaded to the right place, I took the time to reread everything I've written. Sometimes it brought a smile to my face, but sometimes I also felt sad again when I read certain entries and remembered things. Especially those in the beginning. I'm not going to throw them away though, because they are a part of my life and they make it a bit easier to understand why I act a certain way sometimes.
After reading those entries, and comparing them to my latest entries, you'd easily think I'm happy again. It's not like I'm sitting here sobbing, wearing black clothes and black nailpolish, I'm quite happy, but still not as happy as I would want to be someday. I know perfectly why, and although I'm pretty sure that the person this is all about doesn't read my blog anymore but just to be sure I'll be quiet about it. You never know.
Something else: the holidays have started, yay! They'll be very busy though. Yesterday I had music school and KSJ. Tomorrow I'm starting my driving lessons. I'm not at all looking forward to them, I'm just looking forward to that piece of paper that says I can drive a car. But, I'm only seventeen, I'll have to wait another year to get that. I have driving lessons every day of the week, starting tomorrow. I also have something else to do almost every day. Tuesday I'm going to Roeselare, to Kunstbende and then shopping. Wednesday I'm going to the KSJ again, and after that I'll get my eye contacts. Finally! I don't know what I'm doing Thursday but Friday is CREA-day again! I can't wait. It's going to be fun, I just know. Everyone's going to be there, and we're going to see the songs and sketches getting more and more finished. I'm starting to know a good deal of some sketches by heart, and the order of the acts is also starting to get through in my brains.
Saturday is my birthday party. I hope it'll be fun, and I'm very curious as to what my friends will give me. I haven't got the faintest idea. I mean, I've been giving them hints, but I kept changing my mind about it so I don't know what they'll pick. I'll probably be happy with it anyway, because whatever it is, my friends are giving it to me. Things my friends have given to me are important to me.
Wow, talk about a loooong entry! I guess that and the enormous update make up for the long time I haven't been writing.